Time for another update I feel.
The SFN meet went very well on Saturday, thanks to everyone who came out 🙂 I believe there’s a second one being organised now, so hopefully even more people will attend. However there will be no more talk of steak houses.
It’s been a pretty fun Easter actually. Aside from Saturday, I’ve mostly just been having nice lunches at restaurants, playing Mass Effect to the exclusion of mostly everything else, and trying to find time to read ‘The Stars My Destination’. A little crazy stalking from The Ex aside, it’s all been rather pleasant.
I’m trying to organise what the situation is regarding New York in May. I do want to go, however I’m going to have to wait and see what the freelance budget is, particularly since reviews from HD Review seem to be drying up. Also, if this promotion doesn’t go through then I’m going to have to have some serious thoughts about my future career path. Speaking of which, my shorthand has fallen so far on the wayside that it’s not even funny. Hopefully April will be a much calmer month, and give me a chance to sit down and actually learn it properly.
So what’s the topic this time, I hear you ask? Nothing major, actually. I could talk about Iraq, but I don’t have enough energy for an essay at the moment, so that may come later. My positivity reached a zenith with one of my previous posts as well, so that’s out the window. Rugby? Just depressing. Irish lost again to Bath this weekend, and added to our previous two defeats on the trot, my hopes aren’t particularly high for the quarter final on April 5th. In fact, I have the feeling that Perpignan may just grease us up and stealth fuck us into defeat. Or perhaps they’ll take the full on approach, I’m not sure, all I know is that those Catalans can be as bad as Gloucester fans sometimes, so it’ll be an interesting day if nothing else.
I’m not sure what the matter is today actually, just feeling a little deflated. Not tired, not unhappy…just a bit bland. Writing’s going well, although I’m starting to tail off a bit with Ties Of Blood And Affection, so I think a new project is in order. Maybe not science fiction this time, or fantasy (try not to faint). I think I’m just lacking direction slightly at the moment, and the more I think about it, the more unfair it was of Aaron to say that “you might be promoted, you might not be, it depends on the budget and how Damian votes”. Why not just say “look guys, I’ve done your appraisals, but we’re not going to have a meeting about it until Damian’s back from holiday because he needs to rubber stamp it”. Seems a lot fairer than building hopes up unnecessarily, and it kind of precludes me from wholeheartedly investigating anything else. All I know is that I can’t do another year on £12,000. It needs to go up to £15,000 at least, or it’s just not worth it.
The wanderlust is beginning to build again, as well. I’m just really starting to feel as if I’ve outgrown Bournemouth – there’s too many people I dislike here, and I’m tired of seeing the same old shops, going in the same old pubs, having the same old conversations with people every day. I want to get out there and experience somewhere different, but I also recognise the fact that there’s little to no point in moving somewhere like London just for the sake of it. I have to have a plan in place, but in all honestly, I’m so tired of meticulously planning my life at the moment, juggling friends and work and sport. It would just be nice to have some spontaneity, I envy my friends who are going travelling, and finishing Uni. At times it seems like an adventure that I’ve missed out on, and that I’m digging myself into a bit of a rut here. My job is great, and I love it so much, but I just really don’t want to stay here for years while everyone I know is off doing their own thing. You know, having actually left the nest as opposed to fleeing it for two years and coming back again.
Then again, I’m not even sure if journalism is what I really want to be doing anymore. Perhaps I just think too much.
Anyway, I’m not as suicidally depressed as this post makes me seem 😉 Just felt like a bit of a rant. Hope everyone has a great week!
Currently playing: Mass Effect
Currently reading: The Stars My Destination – Bester / The Kite Runner – Hosseini
Currently watching: Everything. God, so much to watch. SCC/Atlantis/New Amsterdam/Reaper…BSG soon!
Currently eating: Malaysian chicken and green bean curry, with a side of pork and lime pickle curry. And a Cadbury’s Caramel, because it’s Easter.